Thursday, October 20, 2011

Somtimes I wonder.....why I feel like I'm going AROUND THE BEND!

From October 18th 2009-April 30th 2011.....18+ short months Daniel and I have lost all of our parents(5, I have a step-parent).   Three of our loses were deaths, both of Daniel's parents and my Dad.

The other two are related to the disease of Alzhimers.....although they are living, they are loses to our lives(I am grieving their lose).   As most of you know......the person with Alzhimers is my Mom, just typing that raises my blood pressure.  The fifth parent is my step-parent....we are not on the same page on any level, and have not had contact in several months(a year+).  With the presence of Alzhimers many issues surfaced.  I honestly had no clue......past history, bitterness, personal differences were so powerful, life changing.  There are times when I feel these circumstances are equal to, or worse than a death.

So today we get up, get ready for the day......try to eat, sleep, and breath normal....hopefully we will do a half decent job of it.

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